My name is Kota and boy do I have a story to tell.
Today my momma and my best friend got the news I was hoping I could keep hidden from her. My secret is out.
For nearly 13 years, we've journeyed together. I've taken my job very seriously, to love and cherish and comfort her. Basically her ride or die.
My mom chose to work at home when I was puppy which was great because it gave us so much more time together. Days with my mom are my favorite. I never leave her side--- from her side of the bed, treatment time, down the hall to the office, cooking in the kitchen (bonus: she usually drops some food), to even the bathroom where I wait on the other side of the glass while she showers. I hate it when she's away from me--- There's a scratched up door and prescription meds for me to prove it. All is perfect in my world when we are together.
Over the last year, my mom has had some seasons that required more bed time which meant more time for us to be together. It's bittersweet for me-- while I don't like to see her under the weather, I do get lots of snuggle time when she is. I tenderly comforted her--- never leaving her side. And, now that my secret is out, I hope she knows that she was actually the one comforting me. I was the major beneficiary of all those hours and days together. All those snuggles made any pain I was feeling lessen. I thought she might have been on to my secret last month when I wasn't able to jump on the bed all by myself anymore or needed to go outside a little more frequently, but we kinda blamed it on my age. That little story worked until today.
The last thing I like to see is for my mom to cry. And Today, I have watched her cry....for hours. I'm grateful our friend Dr Jesse was able to deliver the news of cancer in such a caring way, but seeing her devastation on the way home was hard. As for me, I'm sad my secret is out and sad my body isn't as perfect as the love between me and my mom. I don't know what the future holds, but I know my dear mom holds my future. And I can trust her to love me unselfishly in the coming days and Be by my side until we walk each other home.
